Sunday, March 29, 2009

TRAPPED IN THE CORNER..


Its been  1 year since you LEFT, and I still feel that Im trapped.

It is sickening to see dreams die.

A word of advice, fate's patience is growing short.

fead this twisted nature!!!!!!

I wake up every morning with the same feeling of empty space in myself and with the question mark in my mind..  

in time I will be.....trapped in the corner

this four words my brother, I promise you will not forget..

I miss you a lot and I do need you hermanito....

take care of mom dad & nena they need you more than me. I'll be fine, is just sometimes I dont want to live this reality anymore...

suicidal thoughts cover my mind  sometimes....

love you forever...

peace

O.P.

ps: theres a video of how awesome you were in this life....


LIFE'S A BITCH UNTIL YOU DIE THATS WHY WE GET HIGH, CAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHEN YOU GONNA GO...

Monday, February 9, 2009

Religion... Lies just Lies.....


For as long as organized human societies exist, there will always be a division between the unconscious masses and conscious individuals.....

It may wither and die, but only to be replaced by another philosophy glorifying the qualities of the herd.....

wich one do you belong?

Sunday, January 25, 2009

2008

2008...mmmmmmm     I really dont know..... 
to be honest with you dont know what the fuck happen.... still having endless nights wondering about You..

still not clear to me, and I dont feel that well still, but I do laugh and cry a lot thinking in you...

tengo mucho que contarte...

someday....
oneday...
maybe today...



Wednesday, December 24, 2008

?????????????


please excuse me but I have to ask..

all  my life is so bad but I  try so hard.

because you never respond.. 

and it feels the end the end the end....

I have to be in the end and you know that...

The  more i try to erase you, the more I die...

love you for ever.......



Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Mentally Blind


7 months has gone by... yeah thats fast and I still dont believe it, that you are not here in this life with us...

Excuse me for writing those words before, is just that Im so angry for not seeing you or talk to you anymore and I've been geting a lot of pressure from everybody(you know those ones who never call me or even email me) about me going to Mexico... 
I wont go. 
at least not right now, is not my time...

someone told me that I asimilate more your death than anybody else...Bull fucking shit... 

how do they know? 
they haven't see me or even call me, what is that say to you? 
thats what I thought!!!!

the fact that Im here in the middle of everything with nobody next to me is killing me... cause you you used to be next to me all the time.

should I make everyone to see or hear my pain? or should I just stop doing what I love to do? so everybody can see how bad I have been or should I quit to everything and everybody?

I wont denied that I've been sad and MENTALLY BLIND...

time is a thing we must accept
the unexpected. 
thats why ..

I know there is a way to avoid the pain that we must go thru
to find the other half that is 
YOU..

destiny is what we all see.
destiny was waiting for you and me.

cause I still METALLY BLIND.





competition??????


parece ser o parece estar una gran competencia de a ver a quien le duele mas la muerte de mi hermano (dejenme decirles algo...)  senores y senoras nadie  pero absolutamente nadie puede comparar el dolor que yo he sufrido y sufro por la muerte de mi HERMANITO Gustavo Mishel Palomares Reyes.

que? algunos no sabian su nombre completo?

o que solo por tavo?

que creen... hay mas historia, mas alla!!!!!

he sido juzgado como lo he mencionado antes y me seguiran jusgando... pero 

ME VALE PITO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

que les recuerda algo???

ha habido envidias, y han estado ahi todo el tiempo...

simplemente tavito mi hermana yo Y mis papas lo sabemos y nunca nos a afectado ni interesado..

EXCUSE MY FRENCH!!!!!

hay pendejos y pendejas que piensan o creen ( que es lo peor) que conocieron a mi hermanito...

NO NO NO

MIshel era dedicado carinoso cabron capaz y seguro de si mismo y sus creencias!!! por eso llego a donde llego!

Huevos a todos aquellos que creen conocernos que aprovechan una peda gratis y se desaparecen 3 anios despues llorando por la muerte de mi hermano.

por que?????

nunca lo conocieron o quisieron conocerlo....
no Importa anymore....

no pude verte en tus ultimos dias en esta vida. pero tu no querias que te viera haci, tu sabiendo lo que  he estado buscando...

disculpame si soy egoista, pero cuando deje mexico y uds dije en voz alta que pase lo que pase todo mundo vamos a estar bien

Lo que me enputa es que Mama Y Papa escuchan pendejadas de otras fuentes y andan preocupados por mi y yo de ellos....

pero en fin...

manana van 7 meses de tu muerte.
perdoname hermanito de decir eso. es que  en esta vida moriste en cuerpo pero no en alma..

me resulta dificil todo esto ya que hay un espacio y vacio en mi esperando tu reaccion de mi cuando me ves, como siempre me veias...

he llorado mucho y lo sabes como nunca lo he hecho..

el ser humano basa su vida en fe....  lo que sea pero siempre hay que creer en algo!!!!!!!

yo solo creo en ti.

y estoy seguro que volvere a abrazarte. como lo hize la ultima ves en NYC y en mi sueno..

hay tanto que quiero contarte... te extrano diario... 

no lo creo...

a veces sigo pensando que estas vivo esperando mi llamada!!!!

por favor contesta!!!!!!!



Sunday, September 28, 2008

I.ve spoke to soon...


morning is my friend again
a memory about our plans 
I'm hanging on the fire place
a picture frame and a happy face
smiling for the camera
like a cover girl 
who never make's it in a magazine

dacing like the solid soil
all raniny days and falling reems
I have our diary above the fresh
congrats the smell 
like spring time 
in the 
afternoon, 

I've spoke to soon.

no time to say goodbye  I'm sorry
no time to felt it other feels
no time I'm always in the hurry

but thats not me

Morning is my friend again
i promise kept what I begin
my journey thru the endlees space
a broken heart and bad mistakes
that I've never ment to make

until I made them

strong, alone in the sidewalk  show
the life most go beyond mistaken
everything for granted take in 

everything for granted take in...

that is nothing left 

todaaaaaaay....

no time to say goodbye I'm sorry
no time to felt it other feels
no time I'm always in the hurry

but that's not me
that's not me....

here!!!!!

we are......

will be........