Mentally Blind

7 months has gone by... yeah thats fast and I still dont believe it, that you are not here in this life with us...

Excuse me for writing those words before, is just that Im so angry for not seeing you or talk to you anymore and I've been geting a lot of pressure from everybody(you know those ones who never call me or even email me) about me going to Mexico... 

I wont go. 

at least not right now, is not my time...

someone told me that I asimilate more your death than anybody else...Bull fucking shit... 

how do they know? 

they haven't see me or even call me, what is that say to you? 

thats what I thought!!!!

the fact that Im here in the middle of everything with nobody next to me is killing me... cause you you used to be next to me all the time.

should I make everyone to see or hear my pain? or should I just stop doing what I love to do? so everybody can see how bad I have been or should I quit to everything and everybody?

I wont denied that I've been sad and MENTALLY BLIND...

time is a thing we must accept

the unexpected. 

thats why ..

I know there is a way to avoid the pain that we must go thru

to find the other half that is 

YOU..

destiny is what we all see.

destiny was waiting for you and me.

cause I still METALLY BLIND.